Wow… has it really been 5 months????

I look at the calendar and can’t believe that it’s April already… it seems like just yesterday it was the holidays… and then it was the start of a new year… and then it sort of went down hill from there.

Not too long after Joe’s birthday, his mom got sick & ended up in the hospital… and less than 2 weeks later, she was gone. Those 2 weeks were hard on all of us. In the middle of all of this, Nala got sick & she never got better… and again… less than 2 weeks later, she was gone.

So needless to say… February completely & utterly SUCKED!!!!

I couldn’t wait for the month to finally be over with since it was just a heartbreak all around.

I realize I’m not the same person I was back then. I’m a bit wounded & there is still healing to be done.

The grief stage just sucks too. I want to be happy & remember the good times, but part of me is still angry & hurt.

Maybe now that Spring is here, the fresh air & rebirth of everything will help.

I sure hope some. This rut I’m in is starting to take it’s toll… I just don’t know how much more I can take…